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I haven't posted anything in what feels like ages, mainly because life's been fluctuating between bad and godawful with little to no signs of improvement. I'd like to say that that's changed but, no, it really hasn't. The reason I'm posting an update is because I'm having surgery in a couple of days, and I felt like it wouldn't be okay to not let anyone know. It's a minor thing, really, just tonsillectomy, but everything that involves general anaesthesia freaks me out a bit. 

[EDIT] Writing the above paragraph I forgot that no-one outside my immediate family knows what I've been dealing with recently, so an explanation is in order. I have had to take a large number of mineral supplements and medications as well as eat well balanced meals and "snacks" at specific intervals to control my adrenalin/noradrenalin levels, and do a series of stretches and exercises every day to prevent my neck and pelvic muscles from spasming badly causing severe pain and other highly unpleasant symptoms. The tonsillectomy is going to put a stop to all of this for at least a week, possibly several, and I do not know how bad things will get. That's the actual reason why I'm worried, not so much the operation itself. 
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If nothing too horrible happens after (or during) the operation, I may upload a couple of sketches later this month. Not paleo-themed stuff unfortunately, but it's a bit of mythical animals meet speculative zoology stuff and so on. You'll see when that happens, assuming it happens.
  • Mood: Uneasy
During the last week or so my life has taken a sudden turn from bad to worse. I still haven't found a dose of thyroid hormone that won't make me feel worse within a week from starting even though at first it improves my condition. My neck and shoulders are now so painful and tense it's nearly impossible for me to lay down without developing extreme headaches, which not only makes sleeping difficult but makes it impossible for me to rest and relax my abdominal muscles that too are tense and very painful. The tension in the abdominals in turn messes up with my pelvis and pelvic floor meaning more tension and pain, with no way to relieve it, no way to treat it. As if this wasn't horrible enough, my messed up thyroid state for some reason translates to high levels of adrenaline in my blood with all the symptoms you could imagine from shaking cold hands to much worse things. Because of the turn-of-the-year holidays fysiotherapists and such are largely unavailable. Things are getting worse day by day, and I don't see how things could even stop deteriorating in the next ten days. To put it simply I'm in hell created by my own body, and I don't know if there's any way out at all!

If there's anything at all that's positive to say, I'll let you know in here. But if you don't see any updates from me you can assume things are horribly wrong with me and not getting better. And I'm sad to say but that may be the state of things to be for long, long time. :(
  • Mood: Agony
A short summary of what's currently happening in my life. First off, my health. Turns out my status keeps jumping around from borderline hypothyroid to low euthyroid. The weird thing is that if I take thyroid hormones I get more hypothyroid symptoms and when I don't I get more hyperthyroid symptoms. Why? Damned if I know.

Next up, my computer. We recently had a series of mini-blackouts and current spikes thanks to snow cutting power lines all over the place. As a result my PC got so messed up that it won't boot up if there are any USB devices connected to it. The good news is I found out this can be fixed if I can change some settings in the BIOS. The bad news is I only have USB keyboards so I can't access the BIOS! So right now I can't even use my graphics tablet.

What else? Well, right now I'm getting ready to celebrate Joulu. No, that's not a typo. It's what Finnish people call the winter solstice holiday thing, and have probably called it for a long time, considering how archaic the word is. Why am I telling you this? Because I like the word "Joulu" and I'm proud that our language still has it's very own word for it. So have a very Happy Joulu everyone, as happy as it can be!
  • Mood: Winter Downs
Anthroposaurus color guide by Osmatar
Anthroposaurus color guide
:iconmremilable: asked me what color the Anthroposaurus was for a 3D model he is working on. Since I had a clear idea of it but it would have been really complicated to explain, I decided to create this color guide instead. The palette includes everything of note: claws, areas of bare skin, eyes and feathers (the final one representing the long iridescent display feathers on the head). 

Since Anthroposaurus is supposed to be an extremely human-like troodontid, I envisioned it having evolved on East African savannas, which is why it is coloured much like many small to medium grassland animals from our timeline. Sexual dimorphism isn't covered here, but this individual is colored like a male. The female would have more muted orange skin and dark brown feathers on its head rather than black and iridescent.

I should really draw an updated version of Anthroposaurus some day. This is so old...
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Some of you have probably been wondering why I haven't been active for a while. The answer is, as far as I can tell, thyroid dysfunction. I wish I could tell you more, but I honestly don't know what exactly is going on in my body, apart from the fact that it's now thoroughly messed up, brains included. I seem to have clear as day hyperthyroid symptoms, but at the same time all my blood tests show normal or hypothyroid values. It makes no sense and has lead to me getting a prescription to medication that only succeeded in making things worse. And I can tell you that things were bad enough to begin with!

So right now my brain is thoroughly scrambled and the rest of my body is going nuts as well, and my doctor doesn't even know this is going on and it's almost christmas, so she probably won't until it's next year. All I can do is hope that whatever is doing this is eventually going to go away if I don't take any thyroid hormones and limit my intake of substances the thyroid craves, like iodine. All in all, I fear this is going to be yet another crappy holiday and I doubt I'll be able to create anything new until my nervous system cools down considerably.

If you want to contact me, please do so using the DA note system. I've given myself a temporary ban from Facebook, because I can't trust myself to be able to handle myself in this state. 
  • Mood: Anxious
I haven't posted anything in what feels like ages, mainly because life's been fluctuating between bad and godawful with little to no signs of improvement. I'd like to say that that's changed but, no, it really hasn't. The reason I'm posting an update is because I'm having surgery in a couple of days, and I felt like it wouldn't be okay to not let anyone know. It's a minor thing, really, just tonsillectomy, but everything that involves general anaesthesia freaks me out a bit. 

[EDIT] Writing the above paragraph I forgot that no-one outside my immediate family knows what I've been dealing with recently, so an explanation is in order. I have had to take a large number of mineral supplements and medications as well as eat well balanced meals and "snacks" at specific intervals to control my adrenalin/noradrenalin levels, and do a series of stretches and exercises every day to prevent my neck and pelvic muscles from spasming badly causing severe pain and other highly unpleasant symptoms. The tonsillectomy is going to put a stop to all of this for at least a week, possibly several, and I do not know how bad things will get. That's the actual reason why I'm worried, not so much the operation itself. 
[/EDIT]

If nothing too horrible happens after (or during) the operation, I may upload a couple of sketches later this month. Not paleo-themed stuff unfortunately, but it's a bit of mythical animals meet speculative zoology stuff and so on. You'll see when that happens, assuming it happens.
  • Mood: Uneasy

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:iconrodrigo-vega:
Rodrigo-Vega Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2015  Professional General Artist
Just checking out your gallery, you've got a good range of theme and style going ;)
Keep it up!
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:iconplatypus12:
platypus12 Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2014
How ya holdin' up?
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:icontomorrowmayrain065:
TomorrowMayRain065 Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2014  Student General Artist
Is there an official website for the Speculative Dinosaur project that you could direct me to? Also, I really like your art!
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:iconosmatar:
Osmatar Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2014   Traditional Artist
Not as far as I can tell. There was some talk about a new website some time ago, but I've not heard of it since. I haven't been an active member for a long time, I'm afraid.
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:icontomorrowmayrain065:
TomorrowMayRain065 Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2014  Student General Artist
That's a shame :( Thanks anyway, though.
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:iconplatypus12:
platypus12 Featured By Owner Dec 10, 2014
Do you ever think that my theories on pre-human civilization are but a joke?
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:iconosmatar:
Osmatar Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2014   Traditional Artist
No, I never got the feeling that you were having a laugh at my expense. Why?
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:iconplatypus12:
platypus12 Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2014
Because (and I don't mean to throw accusations around) I feel like at first my ideas on the subject weren't being taken too seriously. I can't stress any further that I'm not accusing you of anything, though; I'm sure it was just constructive criticism.
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:iconosmatar:
Osmatar Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2014   Traditional Artist
If I hadn't taken your ideas seriously, I would never have put so much time into criticizing them. I treat my own story ideas exactly the same, it's just not something outsiders get to see.
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WorldBuildersInc Featured By Owner Dec 3, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
I have to agree with Franz-Josef73; where have you been?! ;D I love your stuff!
(My poor Deinonychus, take a look and see how much pain he's in...!)
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