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I'm done with the tapering and have just crossed the threshold to complete freedom from Diazepam. This is where things get real bad. With the drug completely leaving my body, I'm going to feel the full force of the disabling and debilitating effects of withdrawal, which have been increasingly harder to bear even up to now. I'm not even sure how I'll make it through, knowing how bad it has been so far, not knowing how long it will take until the symptoms become tolerable again. But there is no going back. There can't be. I have to free myself from this poison to ever regain some portion of my health and abilities.

I found a few of files in my that I wanted to post so there'd be something fresh in my gallery for people to look at while I try to fight my way out of benzo purgatory. Since I don't know how many months of life this final stage of withdrawal is going to rob from me, this might be the best way to guarantee that there's something "new" here before christmas. Obviously I intend to be more active again as soon as it's physically and mentally possible, but that could take anything from a month to half a year. (Seriously, Diazepam withdrawal is a long, agonizing, drawn out process. In some cases it takes years for the withdrawal symptoms to fully abate. I don't know if I'm going to be one of the lucky or the unlucky ones so I have to be prepared for anything.)

Hopefully I'll be able to give you updates as I pass milestones such as the peak of withdrawal symptoms (expected at two weeks after quitting completely), but because I don't know in how bad a shape I'll be then, I can't promise anything. This may be one of the last days I'm able to communicate with you for a long time.
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DesOrages Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Happy birthday! Sorry for missing it.
Zimices Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2014  Hobbyist
My best wishes in your birthday for you :)
AlexSone Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy birthday, Mette! I wish you optimistic mood and good health!
Rodlox Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2014
Wishing you all the best.  May your birthday be quite enjoyable.
palaeorigamipete Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
happy birthday!
jorre1 Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2014
happy birthday :D
Evenape Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Have a happy birthday good miss... I hope you will be better soon enough
Jakeukalane Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
happy birthday. Hope you will feel better step by step.
hiphorrific Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2014
I thought this worth mentioning: I was doing a google image search and one of your images came up (the Vux and Spathi). I'd added some of your work to my favorites list in the past but didn't make the connection that this was one of your images. I just thought 'wow, that's really awesome' and navigated to your gallery. It was then that I reminded that not only was this image was not only one of yours but that you're one of my favorite artists I've come across on Anyway, a long story but I thought you should know that I not only liked your stuff once but twice independently. Thanks for doing great work!
hiphorrific Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2014
Sorry, some bad grammar in my comment. I was excited to relate my story to you!
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