A long overdue update

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For all of you who've been wondering where I've been for the last couple of months (and I can name at least one of you), here's the long overdue update that was supposed to come last month.

Back in late April it began to look like Diazepam was finally starting to loosen it's grip on my muscular system, and pretty soon gardening started to overtake all my available time. I may not have mentioned this before, but I used to be pretty passionate about gardening, especially arboriculture. Not having been able to do much of anything in the garden since spring 2012, I had a huge backlog of things to do, which is why I neglected by online presence despite finally starting to feel better. I also found that my neck and shoulders allowed me to play video games again, so that kept me busy in the evenings when I finally managed to drag myself back indoors.

Then, in mid May when I meant to rectify all that, something happened, and the withdrawal came back with a vengeance. Symptoms I haven't really had to deal with since January returned for unclear reasons. I've had to live in fear of the excruciating temple headaches that ruined my life last fall, and give up both garden work and gaming. Other parts of my body - and mind - were also under assault, and I couldn't gather the energy to write the gallery journal update I had been planning either, especially when I intended to follow it up with scans and lengthy descriptions. Now it's been about three weeks since hell broke loose, and I still don't quite understand what happened and what can be done to fix this. But the thing is, I'm not feeling well enough to produce any art or even post online either. This may unfortunately be the only thing I manage to post in my gallery this month.

I really wanted to let you guys know that I'm finally getting better and tell you about the things I was able to produce even while being functionally disabled by the withdrawal syndrome, but unfortunately that turned out to be premature. I do not know when I'll become a healthy productive human being again. Diazepam withdrawal really is the shittiest thing I've had to endure since 2006 (what happened then is a story for another time). 
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Glad you are back.